Flying Dust Chapter 90
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I feel a little cold, everything in the world has become blurred, but only her face is still clear, as if I experienced flowers in a mirror or the moon in the water—an illusion, the only real one was only herself.
“Yunfeng… Yunfeng …” she tilted her head, tears fell on my face, warm, tears that only belonged to me.
“You will not die, I will not let you die too…”
“I just need to sleep well, the moment I wake up … we will meet, and then… then this time we can go together to do the things that we want to do. There is no Jiang Hu, there is no blood worshipping religion … we go to the western region together to appreciate the crazy of sandstorm… go to the snowy mountains to see the sunrise on the peak…”
She described the beautiful picture to me, and for me, it’s the most beautiful one. And for me, the best time is just this moment lying in her arms.
I smiled, I do not know if she can understand the helplessness in my smile, we have experienced too much together, those bone-breaking moments but never with something related to romantic love.
If I can, I don’t need to wake up.
Because right now, I can lie to myself that she loves me.
My body sank into the “Liangyu”, and her inner strength was slowly injected into me, so that I didn’t feel the coldness, but just fell into a deep sleep.
Time just like this, little by little, a year … two years… or ten years, twenty years … I have been closing my eyes, not asking the vicissitudes of the world.
I didn’t consider it, I didn’t miss, yet the time stood still.
Until one day, the light of the fire shook my face, and I heard the voice of a child.
“Why are you already die? … but I think you are still alive?”
All of a sudden, my blood rushed up, and that light voice struck my heart.
In fact, too long silence makes me forget the heartbeat.
“A sword is out of the world or mortal life, and the time (fluttering light) is not waiting to lean on the clouds.”
He recited that line of the poem, and with his slightly lengthened voice, time suddenly reversed, and my ears seemed to ring with the clear sound of the wind, and the face of her casting sidelong glance’s smile.
The dusty time turned over in that child’s voice.
For the first time, I had the desire to struggle, to open my eyes and see his face.
But the Sword Seed had not yet been restored to its original, and I could not even open my own eyes.
He called me “Master”, and there was a certain cynicism in his voice that he didn’t care about anything, even as I began to imagine the rise and fall of his brows, the mockery at the corners of his eyes, the meaningless smile on his lips.
When the firelight that lit the cave dimmed, I knew he was gone, but I knew he would come back.
Or maybe it’s just that I’m expecting it.
In addition to Lianyun … I did not think I would expect another person.
Maybe it’s just that it’s been too long, and I’ve been so numb that I’ve suddenly woken up. But the loneliness I felt after waking up was so terrible that it was hard to describe.
So everything was torture until the moment he reappeared. He came slowly, sat down not far from Liangyu, called me “Shi Zu”, described the scenes of his wild in the village, talked about his senior brother Yu Jin, and hummed a song I had never heard before.
I used everything I had to feel him, as if I was living just for him.
The time I spent with him was so short, and the time he was gone was so long.
Sometimes I want to laugh, I have countless hypotheses in my mind, if Lianyun chose me at the beginning, would I still be lying in Liangyu? If I hadn’t slept for a hundred years, would I not have met this little monkey? If this little monkey had stayed by my side like this, would it not have mattered if it had never been able to leave Liangyu?
“Then when will you come back?”
When I tried to call out the sound of his footsteps,I couldn’t make any sound. Yes, for a living dead man like me, how can I expect that little man to give up digging potatoes and digging out bird eggs and his senior brother Yu Jin? Sooner or later, he will be bored, just one day … like a cloud, disappeared in my time.
A grain of dust, with the wind and passed by.
And I am a person who can not catch the wind.
“This disciple will come to pay a visit when we are free.”He stopped in his tracks, his voice rippling gently, as if good jade had turned into water in a flash.
I smiled, his single word could sway my emotions.
Liangyu could let me live for a hundred years, enough time for my face to turn into a crane’s hair and my hair to turn into white satin. And when you grow old and I have not yet awakened, how am I going to bear the pain after that?
I’m afraid of losing before I can enjoy the pleasure. If Lianyun knew about this, she would have laughed heartily.
“I thought you were a person who could ‘pick up or put down’—be adaptable to circumstances, but I didn’t know you would be so persistent.”That day, Lianyun was holding her glass of wine, drunkenly mesmerized.
I touched her glass and laughed, “Obsessive people have a hard time. So I try to pretend to be indifferent on everything,… but pretending… is even more difficult.”
Then, we looked at each other with a smile.
Maybe I can’t help falling in love with her because she is the person in the world who understands me the most and is also the person who is the most similar to me ba…
I was wondering (make a spiritual tour; range in fancy) like this until the loud noise above my head and the footsteps that kept approaching me as I walked deeper into the cave made me realize that my existence was probably no longer a secret between me and that little thing.
Someone wants to take my sword seed.
Never mind … There are always so many people in this world who regard fame and fortune as so important, and after living for so long, perhaps it is indeed time to end it, so let my sword seed to fulfill you ba!
Burning hot feelings through the ice of Liangyu suddenly caused a burst of suction, heart tightened, almost spasm, blood rushed … that feeling…
It’s that little thing!
Idiot! How did you…. how did you …
This sword seed is not important to me! I already want to end it! Why … why do you want …
I want to embrace him, and even began to hate Lianyun. Why did he freeze me in such a solid Liangyu, obviously close at hand but I can not touch him!
The sword seed in a flash filled up, rushed out of the sea of qi, I struggled to break through the cocoon out in general, finally I held his hands firmly!
Lianyun, I know … this is really the last time my heart moved.
Many, many years later, I cuddled him sitting in the rain pavilion, watching the yellow flowers floating in the wind.
He smiled and told me, “Yun Feng, if I do not enter Jiang Hu then I will never know what is called Jiang Hu. Standing outside Jiang Hu, I see Jiang Hu. In Jiang Hu, I do not see Jiang Hu but after leaving
Jiang Hu, I see you.”
I smiled bashfully.
Fool, my hundred years of loneliness, but also only for you.
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