There was a sound of something breaking in Jinyan Tang.
Xu Hang hadn’t had a good meal for two days already.
When the drug addiction was not acting up, he would often yawn, listless, and even sweat, feel cold and dizzy. Naturally, his appetite was extremely poor, and he would vomit after eating. When the drug addiction was acting up, his limbs would become numb and twitch, and his joints and bones would ache.
He was such a calm person, but he had smashed almost everything in his room in the past two days. The commotion at this moment was because he was rummaging through boxes and cabinets looking for morphine.
Where? Where did Chan Yi put it?
He pulled the bookcase over, and all the books fell to the ground. They were all ancient books that he treasured. Several potted plants on the windowsill were also pushed over. The drawers of every cabinet, big and small, were opened, and the things inside were scattered on the ground.
When Chan Yi came in with tea, Xu Hang waved the teapot away: “Where is the medicine?!”
If Chan Yi hadn’t dodged in time, the scalding water would have been poured on her face already. She was so scared and aggrieved that she took two steps back and said timidly, “Head of the Household, that medicine… can’t be used…”
Chan Yi witnessed how her great-uncle was ruined by opium. The usually amiable old man, just because of his drug addiction, would beat and scold his own children in the street, whip him, and rob passers-by, and finally he smoked too much and fell asleep in the snow and froze to death.
She didn’t want to see Xu Hang become like this, but Xu Hang was already a little crazy now.
Xu Hang suppressed his anger and said, “Chan Yi, I know what’s going on. Don’t mess around anymore. Give me the medicine.”
Chan Yi was also stubborn: “If you keep doing this, you won’t be able to quit!”
“Of course I will quit, but you can’t make me stop all at once, right?” Xu Hang tried to comfort Chan Yi and talk some sense into her. “I’ll start with one today, then one every two days, and then one every three days, and I’ll quit slowly, isn’t that good?”
As he spoke, he approached Chan Yi, who backed away repeatedly: “No, no, if you can avoid it, then don’t. This thing becomes addictive the more you use it, and the harder it is to quit!”
This blatant rejection almost exhausted Xu Hang’s patience.
It was a sunny day today, but Xu Hang felt it was cloudy and rainy.
This is drug addiction. When it comes, it is like dark clouds driving away the sun, faster and faster. As long as you inject morphine, you feel that your breath is filled with the scent of sunshine. But once the drug addiction strikes, you feel that lightning and rainstorms are right next to your ears, and they are about to strike down.
Endless despair, chilling all over, and then after a while you feel so hot that you collapse, and millions of leeches are sucking your blood. You can even imagine what it feels like to have your bones gnawed by bugs.
In other words, the bones are growing like bamboo, breaking through your skin and flesh and piercing your brain directly!
“Give me the medicine,” Xu Hang shook Chan Yi. “Chan Yi, you listen to me the most, give me the medicine!”
From Chan Yi’s perspective, Xu Hang’s face was clearly distorted. Chan Yi gritted her teeth and said to him bravely, “There is no medicine! I burned and threw away everything already!”
“Say it again…?”
“Quit drugs, alright? Chan Yi will help you quit. You will really die if you continue to use that drug! At this critical moment, you and Commander Duan are even in a stalemate. If I let you do what you want, I will really harm you!”
Chan Yi’s voice always sounds like crying.
Xu Hang couldn’t listen at all. His drug addiction had eroded his rationality. He only knew that if the woman in front of him didn’t give him the medicine, she was going to harm him. He reached out and touched the injection in Chan Yi’s arms and tried to grab it. When Chan Yi struggled, the medicine fell out.
“Morphine…” Xu Hang felt like he saw a savior.
Chan Yi palea drastically. She immediately picked up the morphine on the ground and smashed it as fast as she could! With a snap! All the injections broke instantly, and the liquid flowed all over the ground.
Almost at the same time, Xu Hang reached out to rescue them, but he was too late. His knees went weak, and his hand was pierced by the broken glass, leaving a small wound on it.
Gone, all gone.
His last medicine, gone.
Drug addicts are most likely to have hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. They always feel that others are persecuting them. Just like at this moment, the world that Xu Hang sees is colorful and upside down, and even the cicada leaves look so hideous.
He grabbed Chan Yi’s neck, his expression was terrified: “Chan Yi, you want to kill me? You want to kill me?!”
“Cough, cough… Head of the Household… no… cough, cough!” Chan Yi tried to explain, but no sound came out.
At this time, the little monk ran in. Seeing this scene, he was so scared that his eyes were filled with tears. His clear and crisp voice broke the deadlock: “Brother Xu, let go! Sister Chanyi is going to be strangled to death by you!”
The childish voice was like a beam of light shining into the darkness, allowing Xu Hang to find some reason in his delusion. His hands loosened at once, and Chan Yi rolled on the ground. The little monk hurriedly helped Chan Yi up: “Sister… are you alright?”
“Cough, cough… cough, cough, cough!”
Xu Hang looked at his bleeding palms, the messy room, the crying woman and child, and his own miserable state, and felt that everything was so strange.
The broken mirror on the ground reflected his appearance, which was too ugly, like a madman.
“Get out.” It took him a long time to find his voice.
If he stayed with them any longer, he was afraid that he would hurt them again.
Fearing that it might be bad for the child to see it, Chan Yi hurriedly carried the little monk out of the room. She carried him to another courtyard: “Be good, Sister is fine. Don’t go to the Young Master’s room for the next few days, alright?”
“What happened to Brother Xu? He looked so scary…” The little monk was still frightened.
“Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid. He is just sick. He will be normal once he recovers.” Chan Yi touched the back of the little monk’s head and comforted him, not knowing whether she was comforting the child or herself.
The little monk poked his head out of Chan Yi’s arms and said, “Brother Xu is a physician. Can’t a physician treat himself? Can a physician get sick too?”
Chan Yi looked at the innocent face of the little monk, feeling mixed emotions: “Yes, physicians can get sick too, just like your Brother Xu. So, Sister Chanyi is going to find him a physician who specializes in saving and helping him cure this disease.”
Although Chan Yi was smiling, the little monk felt that she was not very happy, so he clumsily touched Chan Yi’s hair and said, “Sister, don’t be sad, Brother will be fine. Sister is good to him, and he is also very good. Master said that good deeds will be rewarded.”
Chan Yi looked at the little monk, reached out and hugged him, and cried quietly at an angle where he couldn’t see.
There are some things she can’t do, so she can only ask others to do them.
Xu Hang is unwilling to put down his face, so she will do it for him.
