DL Chapter26

Fang Fengzhi felt like he was floating in the turbulent sea, the raging waves rushed towards him, he was hit and suddenly drowned in the water, and then slowly floated up. He also felt like he was in a burning fire, his whole body was burning, hot sweat came out, the strong smell of smoke trapped him. No matter how he ran, there was no end. He wanted to scream with a hoarse voice, but warm water was sent to his mouth.

 

He didn’t know how long it had been, but gradually, he felt the heat slowly dissipating, and he was dragged back to the ground and saw a faint light. His body felt as if it had been reborn, cleansed by some kind of baptism; comfortable, content, and full of ease. Every pore seemed to breathe freely, inhaling the lingering air tinged with the scent of gunpowder.

 

He slowly opened his eyes.

 

After regaining control of his body, Fang Fengzhi felt very tired and heavy, but also comfortable. He had not felt this comfortable since he reached adulthood. Something in his body seemed to have been completely released, and he felt completely relaxed. He first rolled his eyes and looked around.

 

This was a very unfamiliar room, large but not empty. The French window on the side had a translucent curtain, which showed that there should be a balcony outside. The furniture and decoration style made Fang Fengzhi feel very familiar. Coupled with the pheromone of the smell of gunpowder that permeated the whole room, he sobered up immediately.

 

He moved his body gently and found that he felt heavy because something was pressing on him. His heart beat abnormally a few times, and then he slowly turned his head.

 

He saw Min Zhi’s face.

 

The man was now half-lying on Fang Fengzhi, soundly asleep. Fang Fengzhi’s own skin was pressed tightly against the man’s equally naked body, it was warm and covered with fine sweat stains.

 

His brain was full of scattered memories. He used some strength to escape from Min Zhi. As soon as he sat up, he saw condoms scattered all over the floor. It was not an adjective, but the surrounding area of the big bed was indeed full of used condoms, with almost no place to stand. In addition, there were several empty tubes of inhibitors and empty boxes of nutrients. The trash can was also full, and it seemed that they were thrown on the floor because they could not fit any more.

 

Fang Fengzhi paused for a few seconds. Judging from the used nutrients, he and Min Zhi had been here together for at least three days. Fang Fengzhi’s face was blank, and he was dazed. The images of his estrus kept flashing through his mind.

 

They never left the room during these days. They just stayed here and made love, sometimes in the bathroom, sometimes on the bed, or even on the balcony.

 

He vaguely remembered that in Fu Baiqi’s house, he begged the man, holding his hand, asking him not to leave, and then they hugged each other, kissed, and made love.

 

Every time he recalled a scene, Fang Fengzhi’s heart sank, and it kept sinking, as if it could never reach the bottom. He felt an itch at the back of his neck, as if ants were crawling across it. He unconsciously reached out to scratch it, but it touched the sunken gland. He didn’t know how many times that place had been bitten, it hurt every time he touched it. He blinked.

 

Done for.

 

What on earth did he do?

 

He felt cold all over, and his heart was filled with a feeling of boredom and repression.

 

He had made love to someone else, for the first time. No, not just the first time, every time had been with this man, his husband’s boss. Not only that, he indulged him and even begged him to mark him again and again. Fortunately, they didn’t go to the last step, he didn’t enter his reproductive cavity, he just temporarily marked him.

 

But for Fang Fengzhi, this was no blessing. He had cheated, betrayed his husband, and it was a sin he couldn’t forgive himself for. He had believed he was honoring Fu Baiqi’s love, the love that had lasted over a decade, the love he’d held onto so tightly. He’d wanted to give his husband everything good he had to offer… but in the end, he was left with nothing.

 

He didn’t know whether Fu Baiqi had ever slept with someone else. Even when he caught the scent of an unfamiliar omega’s pheromones on him, he couldn’t be certain, it could’ve come from a bed, or maybe, as Fu Baiqi claimed, it was just work. If Fu Baiqi had truly been with someone else, Fang Fengzhi would feel heartbroken, because it would mean Fu Baiqi had betrayed him. And yet, he had betrayed Fu Baiqi too. There was no chastity in their marriage. But if not, he would be extremely painful because he became the only betrayer in their loose marriage.

 

Fang Fengzhi’s whole body was stiff, and he felt his nose sore. He began to despise. He despised the Creator for creating a mating period like that of wild animals, despised the Creator for dividing the world into three genders, and he despised his own betrayal and his own love even more.

 

It was like he was trapped in an endless loop. After he despised himself, he began to think about his unhappy life again. He admitted it, he was self-pitying, maybe even weak. Whenever his colleagues got drunk at gatherings, they would make fun of him, saying he was too timid, too unwilling to let go. They even brought up his marriage, pointing out how his husband still hadn’t marked him after all this time, and urged him to get a divorce. Fang Fengzhi always laughed it off.

 

He felt tired. Others could say such things because they had not experienced it.

 

He grew up in a small town, and he was not like this at that time. Although he was not close to his parents, but he was doing a job he liked and was very happy. It’s just that he has been thinking about this person in his heart for so many years.

 

Later, his mother fell ill. For the sake of his mother and to marry Fu Baiqi, he came to a big city where he was unfamiliar with the place. He had no friends or family, and everything around him was incompatible with him.

 

He tried to fit in with indifferent colleagues, but there is always a gap between them.

 

There are always unsatisfactory things at work, but he has a low level of education and is an Omega, so it is not easy for him to change jobs.

 

Eventually, his mother died of illness and owed the Fu family a large sum of money.

 

This money, the monthly estrus, and Fu Baiqi’s annoying attitude — one thing after another was about to overwhelm him. If he wanted to pay back Fu Baiqi’s money, he could only endure doing things he didn’t like. He couldn’t find anyone to talk to. He could only return to an empty home every time, he had to endure Fu Baiqi’s cold gaze. Even a normal person would become abnormal because of this.

 

He wiped away the tears that had unknowingly fallen. Though Omegas were said to cry easily, he remembered he hadn’t been like this before. But in recent years, everything felt exhausting, no matter what he did, sadness always seemed to cling to him.

 

Behind him, he could hear the Enigma’s steady breathing, and the blanket draped over them shifted gently with the movement. Min Zhi should have woken up, but Fang Fengzhi didn’t dare to look back. He didn’t dare to face Min Zhi’s face at this moment. Shame, anger, anxiety, and fear… these negative emotions weighed on him, making him unable to raise his head.

 

Tears fell drop by drop on the quilt.

 

The warmth beside him drew closer, and suddenly, Fang Fengzhi was pulled into someone’s embrace. That familiar scent of gunpowder, which was comforting and secure, wrapped around him, radiating heat and a gentle warmth. Fang Fengzhi was stunned. Now was not the time to be in heat. Min Zhi was probably not awake yet, but he couldn’t make the same mistake again. He raised his hand anxiously and pressed it against the man’s chest to push him away. But Min Zhi hugged him tighter, and Fang Fengzhi’s face was almost touching his chest. The two were tightly pressed together.

 

Fang Fengzhi struggled even harder to break free, panic rising within him. People cannot control themselves when they are emotional. Tears streamed uncontrollably down his face as he gasped for breath, and a low, angry growl, like that of a cornered animal, rose from his throat.

 

Min Zhi didn’t move at all, and Fang Fengzhi was held tightly by him.

 

He was very sobered, but the heavy use of inhibitors had left him exhausted and drowsy. He could feel the Omega stirring restlessly in his arms, clearly distressed. He knew Fang Fengzhi was thinking about what they had done over the past few days, lost in confusion and unsure of what to do next.

 

Min Zhi half-closed his eyes tiredly. He knew he had made a mistake, a very serious mistake.

 

Fang Fengzhi was someone else’s wife, and he had s*xual relations with him even though he knew all this.

 

In fact, in a sense, Fang Fengzhi was unconscious and asked him to help him, and he followed his idea and helped him through his estrus. If he had to justify it, Min Zhi could say he crossed a moral line out of compassion, while Fang Fengzhi had acted purely out of physical instinct and desire.

 

This is probably what Fang Fengzhi was thinking, which is why he was so anxious and angry.

 

Min Zhi could have followed Fang Fengzhi’s line of thought and shirked all his responsibilities so that he would not be morally condemned. After all, “becoming an intruder in someone else’s marriage” was something Min Zhi despised very much, and he was also unwilling to bear such a serious crime.

 

But when he saw the Omega’s tightly clenched fists and felt warm tears falling onto his bare chest, Min Zhi felt a sudden, inexplicable ache in his heart. After a long silence, he let out a slow sigh and gently ran his palm along Fang Fengzhi’s back, as if trying to comfort and calm him.

 

He spoke expressionlessly into Fang Fengzhi’s ear.

 

“Don’t cry. It’s all my fault.”