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GSY Chapter83

The rain was falling fast, and the sound of raindrops hitting the umbrella was so loud that it seemed as if it would blow the umbrella away.

 

The door of the bedchamber suddenly opened, and a ray of light slowly leaked in. Yuan Zheng looked at Cen Yelan standing by the door without blinking. He was standing with his back to the light, with a slender and thin figure. The night wind and slanting rain covered the vast world. Suddenly, a purple lightning bolt tore through the sky, and the rumbling thunder rolled in the thick black clouds, and the momentum was getting closer.

 

After just a moment, Cen Yelan slightly moved aside to make way.

 

Yuan Zheng’s heart beat faster than expected, and before he could react, he had already waded through the water. The eaves were wet, and the rain kept flowing along the stone steps. Yuan Zheng raised his leg and stepped onto the stone steps, staring straight at Cen Yelan, his eyes were burning hot and exposed. Cen Yelan took a step back uncomfortably and said lightly, “It’s raining so hard, why are you out there in the rain?”

 

Yuan Zheng said, “I was busy reviewing documents late at night and couldn’t sleep, so I wanted to come and see you.”

 

Cen Yelan glanced at him. Yuan Zheng had been standing outside for an unknown amount of time. His clothes and hair were wet, but his eyes were sparkling, as if he had already forgotten the unpleasant argument between them.

 

Cen Yelan sighed and said, “You are the ruler of a country, but still acting like this.”

 

Yuan Zheng said nothing, just looked at Cen Yelan, and smiled. Cen Yelan was speechless when he looked at him like that. The hall suddenly became quiet, with only the sound of wind and rain outside.

 

Yuan Zheng reached out and touched Cen Yelan’s cheek. His hand was cold and still wet. Yuan Zheng took it back and said, “Why are you still awake so late at night?”

 

Cen Yelan said nothing, but his eyes fell on his rain-soaked shoulders, and he whispered, “Your clothes are wet, go change them.”

 

He said it so naturally that Yuan Zheng was startled and somewhat flattered. He sighed and looked at Cen Yelan but couldn’t bear to move. Cen Yelan was wearing a white undergarment, which was not as meticulous as usual, revealing two white collarbones, with his hair loose, revealing a lazy and quiet beauty. Cen Yelan couldn’t stand his gaze, his palms were sweating, and he thought, He is really obsessed.

 

But seeing Yuan Zheng standing alone in the rain, somehow, his self-control and calmness were put aside, and when he came to his senses, the two of them were already staring at each other at the door.

 

Suddenly, Cheng Huai’s voice was heard outside the hall. He grew up in the palace, he didn’t talk much, but knew when to act. He brought warm water and clean clothes in and then left.

 

Only the two of them were left in the hall.

 

Cen Yelan absentmindedly picked up a military book that he had already read and flipped through it. Yuan Zheng finally looked away. Not long after, Cen Yelan heard the rustling sounds of changing clothes and running water. He breathed a sigh of relief but inexplicably felt a sense of loss in his heart, as if he was waiting for something.

 

He didn’t notice any of the words in the book. He turned the page as Yuan Zheng washed his hands.

 

“Ah Lan.” Yuan Zheng called out, speaking slowly and in a rare slow voice, “You should stay in the capital for the next few days.”

 

Cen Yelan was stunned for a moment, then raised his eyes and looked over. Yuan Zheng lowered his head and didn’t look at him.

 

Yuan Zheng said, “Don’t be nervous. It’s not that I don’t want you to go back, but you are now…” He paused and then continued, “You are pregnant, it is not suitable for you to travel a long way, and the weather is getting hotter. As the month progresses, it can no longer be concealed. It’s better for you to stay in the capital and take good care of yourself until the child—”

 

“Until the child is born.”

 

Yuan Zheng stared at his fingers in the water and said, “Whether you want to stay in the capital or return to the north, I won’t stop you.”

 

Cen Yelan stared at Yuan Zheng in a daze. Yuan Zheng laughed very lightly and said, “Yan Le and Shu Dan are dead. The alliance between the tribes on the northern border has collapsed. The tribes have suffered heavy losses, and the Hu people’s royal court has suffered the most. The tribes are not united to begin with. With such a godsend opportunity, how can they be willing to be inferior to others? The Hu people will definitely be in chaos.”

 

“In fact, you know very well that the Hu people are now unable to take care of themselves and are unable to send troops in a short period of time.” Yuan Zheng said, “Ah Lan, you only want to return to the northern border to avoid me.”

 

Yuan Zheng lowered his eyes and smiled. He looked up at Cen Yelan and said softly, “Ah Lan, you don’t have to hide from me, not in this life.”

 

Cen Yelan was a little at a loss, “…Yuan Zheng.”

 

Yuan Zheng slowly walked towards Cen Yelan. The two of them got closer. Yuan Zheng squatted down in front of Cen Yelan, looked at him, and said, “I know you can’t let go of the northern border. One day, you will lead my soldiers to destroy the royal court to eliminate this century-old threat. I can’t stop you, and I don’t want to stop you either. When you go to the battlefield one day, I will personally see you off. How about it?”

 

Cen Yelan tightly grasped the book that was hanging on his lap, staring at Yuan Zheng blankly. “Why… why?”

 

Yuan Zheng smiled slightly and said frankly, “I can’t bear to leave you.”

 

“I have been thinking that I might as well fulfill your wish and set you free for some time already.” Yuan Zheng said, “But I can’t bear to do so. I can’t bear to leave you behind, and I can’t bear to break your wings and trap you in this palace.”

 

He didn’t know how long he had been thinking about it in his mind, but it was much easier to say it out loud than he had imagined. Yuan Zheng let out a light breath, looked up at Cen Yelan, and said softly, “Ah Lan, I will fulfill your wish, you also fulfill me and your own wish too, alright?”

 

Cen Yelan was stunned for a long time before he came to his senses. His eyes were filled with warmth. He said in a hoarse voice, “Yuan Zheng… you don’t have to do this and make yourself grievous.”

 

Yuan Zheng smiled, took Cen Yelan’s fingers, and kissed them, “How can this be called grievance? It’s a grievance only if I can’t be with you.”

 

Cen Yelan’s fingertips trembled, and he became more and more at a loss. He murmured, “You are the emperor…”

 

“It’s lonely at the top. Everyone says that the emperor is noble, but the emperor is the most pitiful.” Yuan Zheng rubbed his fingers and laughed, “Dear Ah Lan, I have become this pitiful emperor. You can’t let me become a poor guy who has lost even the people I admire and my children, right? If that’s the case, then I’d rather not be the emperor.”

 

He said it so pitifully and with a childish willfulness. Cen Yelan didn’t know what to say. Yuan Zheng scratched his palm, made him look at him, and then said seriously, “Ah Lan, you know me. I don’t want to be the master of this world.”

 

“All I want is you.”

 

“I have made up my mind. I cannot be a wise and holy king in the eyes of the world. Let them say what they want. After three to five years, eight to nine years, they will get tired of it.”

 

It seemed that all the difficult things seemed insignificant to Yuan Zheng. He said, “I don’t seek to leave a name in history, nor do I fear the criticism of the world. I only want you.”

 

Cen Yelan was completely shocked by his words. His head was buzzing like the waves. But in this shock, he seemed to have seen another way. His breathing became rapid. He looked at Yuan Zheng and unconsciously clenched Yuan Zheng’s hand tightly without knowing it.

 

Yuan Zheng said, “Ah Lan, I know all the concerns in your heart—”

 

“Even if things in the world are not as we wish, how can we know that we can’t change the situation if we don’t try? Ah Lan, life is only a hundred years long, or a few decades at most. Why should we confine ourselves to a prison for others and make our whole life suffer?”

 

Cen Yelan looked at Yuan Zheng, was silent for a long time, and said, “…Have you ever thought about the consequences?”

 

Yuan Zheng snorted and laughed: “I have.”

 

Cen Yelan was speechless, and Yuan Zheng said, “Actually, I also have selfish motives.”

 

“Ah Lan has great ambitions to become a famous general. When historians write about you one day, I’m sure he will praise you highly. A wise ruler deserves a famous general. I want to be a wise ruler only if you are by my side.”

 

Yuan Zheng paused, looked at Cen Yelan’s red eyes, leaned closer, kissed the small mole under his eye, and whispered, “Ah Lan, just think of it as having pity on the people of the world and feeding the tiger with your own body to fulfill my obsession.”

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  1. Lala says:

    What does it mean, what does it mean?! He’s giving up being emperor to stay with his general and baby? Is that what he’s saying?

    1. 黑•Xuan says:

      No, no, what he meant was that he won’t be the perfect king and everyone can say whatever they want to, if he can’t even be with the person he loves then there’s no point in being an emperor. So he was just begging CYL to have mercy on him and don’t leave for now

      1. Yani says:

        I thought he was begging for general to marry him anyway and promising that even if they were married when time comes he’d let him go to battle not minding about what people would say… looks like my mind run wild again… 🤡

  2. Lala says:

    Or he’s worked something out somehow it seems

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