Title: 不正经关系 (Improper Relationship)
Author：御小凡 (Yu Xiaofan)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists ：严海安 (Yan Hai’an – MC), 孙言 (Sun Yan – ML)
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Yan Hai’an walked away in anger. What Sun Ling had said to Sun Yan through the door last night had caused him to lay in bed awake all night. He thought he wouldn’t be able to sleep, but then he still napped in a daze. He even thought about what he said in his dreams.
Does Yan Hai’an want to have nothing to do with me anymore? He thought it over.
He was very miserable when he woke up. This is not as painful as the violent tearing between his body and mind like when he learned that his parents had an accident. But it is painful in a sense where he had a premonition that his future and life will become dull. It is like invisible clouds shrouding his heart all the time.
Sun Yan said: “I don’t think you are very busy? Anyway, we are very familiar with each other. I just want you.”
Yan Hai’an was a little dazed, and before he could sort out his thoughts, Sun Yan already reached his door.
What does he mean by finding me here today? What does it mean to make such a request? Yan Hai’an thought to himself.
Yan Hai’an has long learned to deal with the vagueness of many things. Once upon a time, like Mo Yisheng, he was black and white, with clear love and hate. Even if life was difficult, his logic was clear. He knew that hard work would pay off and seriousness would also pay off.
However, this time it was not the case. His innocent heart was splashed with dirty water and the dirt in front of him could no longer be washed away.
Yan Hai’an knew in his heart that people always have to go through this kind of thing. Only some very lucky darlings can keep a pure heart. So even if he discovered such a subtle interaction between himself and Sun Yan, he would try to ignore it. It’s just because he knows that neither he nor Sun Yan are the kind of people who want to put their seriousness into this kind of thing.
This self-deception, which both parties understand, keeps them safe from possible harm.
Yan Hai’an was shocked and came back to his senses.
He was silent for a moment and calmly said: “Mr. Sun, please come in with me. There are some things that need to be explained to you.”
Sun Yan was already very flustered. But when he heard what he said, he was even more flustered. When he was in a panic, his face was very stiff and he looked very arrogant. He nodded his head arrogantly and led the way.
Yan Hai’an turned around and took him to the small office. Sun Yan followed behind him, confused in his mind. Of course he hadn’t figured it out since last night.
How exactly am I going to get him back? And most importantly, what do I want to do? Sun Yan wondered.
Sun Yan walked into the small office and got in close proximity with Yan Hai’an again. He couldn’t help but feel a little uncomfortable. He turned sideways and closed the door.
As soon as he turned his head, an attack came towards him.
When he was suddenly attacked, Sun Yan’s face changed. He instinctively wanted to fight back. But he suddenly remembered who was coming at him. So, his vicious expression stiffened and he didn’t dodge.
His collar was being pulled and he was pushed to the door with a strong force.
Yan Hai’an grabbed his collar with one hand: “Sun Yan, what are you trying to do?”
This is the second time he has asked. Unlike the last time, this time he will speak clearly.
“Don’t play games like this with me anymore. I’m already interested in you.” Yan Hai’an said. Which almost sounded like a confession. But he didn’t look anxious or embarrassed. “I know you have ideas about me. But since you and I don’t want to go any further, let’s just stop here.”
Except for Sun Ling, Sun Yan has never been pushed to the door like this in his life. He looked at Yan Hai’an breathlessly, thinking of himself back then when he learned of the plane accident. For a long time, he could not stop thinking about that time, wishing that everything would start all over again even if it’s a day earlier. No, even if it’s two hours earlier. Just to be able to tell his parents his love for them before they boarded the flight to their death.
Instead, he let them leave with memories of endless quarrels.
Those words that he spoke out of anger, he felt them stuck in the bottom of his heart every time he thought about it. He had never had a chance to pull them out in his life.
That pain turned into a blind anger and he was furious at everything. And that anger was ultimately directed at himself.
Sun Yan held Yan Hai’an’s hand stiffly, took a deep breath, and said grimly, “Who said I don’t want to go further?”
This time, it was Yan Haian’s turn to be stunned. And his face couldn’t help showing a little anxiety.
Sun Yan grabbed his shoulder, turned him around and pressed him on the door with a slam. There’s anger in his eyes: “Who the hell doesn’t want to go further?”
Yan Hai’an was stunned by his roar and immediately shouted back: “It’s not my problem! Who was it that didn’t want to confirm the relationship with me first! You fucking tell me yourself!”
This is something that Sun Yan did in a pretentious way. At the beginning, he was reluctant to bear it if Yan Hai’an refused to go further, so he first decided that the relationship should not be serious.
Sun Yan’s eyes wandered for a while but then he roared with a guilty conscience: “Then you can’t say it yourself?! Didn’t you just say that you were interested in me? How could you treat me like this when you were interested in me?!”
Yan Hai’an pushed his hand away with his hand, but didn’t break the grip apart: “Look at you, you reluctant scum, are you too embarrassed to say it?! Even if I say it, it’ll be useless. Are you not satisfied with me being cautious?!”
The two of them seemed to have only a single digit of their IQ left and they were quarrelling blindly.
Sun Yan: “If you don’t say it, how do you know it’ll be useless?!”
Yan Hai’an: “Why should I say it?! I don’t even know if you’re interested in me. Then why don’t you say it? Do it. Do it. You only think of having sex when we meet! If you can’t have sex for a day, you will die!”
Sun Yan: “Doesn’t your fucking conscience hurt? Am I the only one who feels good?! It’s because I like you that I want to have sex with you every day! And it was originally said to be mutually beneficial. If you need me to fuck you, I will never reject you. Even if there is no need, why do you think I still push to three or four rounds? Can’t you figure it out?”
“How can I figure it out? Why are you blaming me?! Is it so great that you like me?! Well, I like you too!” Yan Hai’an and Sun Yan were pushing their hands at each other like two cats playing ‘you-push-I-push’ with their paws. At this time, Yan Hai’an was so angry that he spoke his native dialect: “You fucking asshole, let go of Laozi!”
The two stopped excitedly, gasping for breath and not speaking.
They were in a fierce mood just now and they have said everything that should and should not have been said. Now, they had both calmed down a little bit, and the two of them frowned in unison.
The door behind Yan Hai’an was knocked cautiously. Wu Fang’s voice was a little dull from the other side of the door, but he could still hear a bit of trepidation: “Boss. Hmm. Do you need me to make tea for you?”
There is tea in the small office. That was obviously just an excuse. They were so loud that they had already alarmed the people outside. Wu Fang wasn’t too daring either, but he saw that Sun Yan was the one who stood outside and squatted for a long time. He was afraid that something might really happen, so she braved herself to ask.
Yan Hai’an turned his face to the side and said, “No need. Go and do your own thing.”
Hearing the people outside leaving, Yan Hai’an maintained that position uncomfortably, and his eyes fell on Sun Yan’s hand: “What are you still holding on to me for?”
Sun Yan paused, then retracted his hand embarrassedly.
No matter how mentally handicapped someone is, if they already said something, they can’t take it back. They both were a little speechless.
Yan Hai’an’s shoulders were hurt by this animal who only knew how to use brute force, so he unconsciously raised his hand and rubbed it. Sun Yan suddenly held it: “What happened to your hand?”
The watch slipped back with the movement, revealing the bruised wrist. Before Yan Hai’an could answer, Sun Yan remembered that he was the one who caused it last night.
He peeked at Yan Hai’an angrily: “How could it be so swollen… Did you not apply the medicine?”
Yan Hai’an’s face did not fluctuate and he wanted to withdraw his hand: “It’s not that serious.”
Sun Yan refused to let go: “What nonsense? Are you just gonna ignore it swollen like this? The ointment that was specially made by someone from my house was very useful. It will reduce a lot after rubbing it for one night. Come back with me.”
After such a scene just now, Yan Hai’an still felt a little strange: “No need.”
Sun Yan wanted to say something, but let go and whispered, “Then you wait here first. I’ll go back and get it for you.”
“No need…” Yan Hai’an was a little shocked by him. Sun Yan has always been arrogant and domineering and he never negotiates with others when speaking. It’s hard to see him compromise so easily.
Seeing that Sun Yan really wanted to turn around and leave without saying a word, Yan Hai’an stopped him: “You… Wait. Your brother gave me a bottle last night.”
“Then why don’t you use it?” Sun Yan came back immediately, “Where’s the medicine?”
Yan Hai’an frowned and said, “I left it at home.”
“Then let’s go to your house.” Sun Yan was gentle. He took Yan Hai’an and walked out. After walking a few steps, he thought of something. He changed to holding Yan Hai’an’s left hand with his right hand. This time, he deliberately increased his strength.
When he was like this, Yan Hai’an couldn’t struggle anymore. He was led out by him while he still refused: “It’s really unnecessary and it doesn’t hurt too much. I’ll go back after work and apply it on myself.”
Sun Yan said without looking back, “No, I feel uncomfortable looking at it.”
The two walked to the door and Yan Hai’an was dragged away after saying only a few words with Wu Fang. Wu Fang and Li Jinjing were both stunned, not knowing why it is like that.
Sun Yan drove downstairs to the apartment and followed Yan Hai’an upstairs: “Your family lives here? Or do you live alone?”
Yan Hai’an took the key and opened the door: “This is Yisheng’s house. I live here temporarily.”
“What?” Although this was expected, Sun Yan still felt indescribable anger when he heard it, “Don’t you have another place to live? Where do you want to live? There are five or six sets of apartments I have in this city. You can live in any of them at any time. No problem. You can choose whichever you want.”
Yan Hai’an: “…”
I should just ignore you, Yan Hai’an thought.
The door was unlocked but there was no one in the house. Obviously, Mo Yisheng forgot to lock the door when he went out. Yan Hai’an said to Sun Yan, “Sit down first. What would you like to drink?”
He seemed very familiar in this house. It was as if he was half the owner. Sun Yan felt even more uncomfortable: “No need. The medicine is in your bedroom, right?”
He didn’t wait for Yan Hai’an to speak. He followed Yan Hai’an into the room and said critically as he walked: “This house is so old. The layout is not very good, it must be uncomfortable to live in, right? Your bedroom is not even as big as my cloakroom. …”
Yan Hai’an’s mind was still very confused. Hearing him babble here and there, he couldn’t bear it: “Shut up! Otherwise, you will go out.”
Sun Yan was indignantly quiet like a chicken.
Yan Hai’an’s room is very simple. There’s a bed, a wardrobe, a desk facing the window, a notebook, some sundries and a simple bookshelf on the table.
The quilt was meticulously layered with the temperament of military training. Sun Yan stood beside him and admired it. Then he sat up and looked around. The walls were clean and there were no paintings on the walls. From the layout of the room, it was impossible to tell at all that a person who works in the art industry lives here.
Yan Hai’an took out the small bottle of medicine from the drawer of the wardrobe, sighed, turned around and sat on the bed. He originally wanted to apply it in front of Sun Yan’s face, but Sun Yan took it very naturally, opened it and applied the medicine on him.
Sun Yan’s technique was actually quite good. It only hurts a little. When he first massaged it, he felt the pain from the swelling. But soon after being massaged, he felt much more comfortable.
There are only the two of them in this small room and the only place where they touch is the small piece of the wrist. They are restrained but intimate.
Yan Hai’an had to find something to say: “I didn’t expect you to have this skill.”
Sun Yan lowered his head. The strength in his hands was always moderate: “I used to fight with Sun Ling. It was enough for us to fight each other. Sometimes we beat each other up so much that our noses were bruised and in the end, we had to rub medicine on each other.”
“That’s how it is.” Yan Hai’an watched him bowing his head and rubbing his wrists carefully over and over. The sunlight hit their sides from the window in the afternoon and the heat was like a substance that pressed against his face with a kind of heavy pressure.
Perhaps because the light was a bit dazzling, Sun Yan’s eyes narrowed slightly, but his attention was always on Yan Hai’an’s wrist, and he couldn’t even think of hiding that fact.
The fact that this person likes him.
Yan Haian suddenly realised this matter.
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Next update: 2022.06.15
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*Translator’s Note: Well, ‘laozi’ is a rude way of saying ‘me/I’. By the way, I’m back from my vacation. So I’m publishing this chapter a few days earlier to make you guys happy! -K
