AMA Chapter71

“What kind of f”cking metaphor is that?” Yu Chengsong clicked his tongue.

 

“It’s an appropriate analogy.” Zhou Zheyu looked at him. “There’s nothing wrong with the way you two get along. Isn’t that how we all love at our age? We love each other with all our hearts, but the premise is that nothing goes wrong.”

 

“Look now, you don’t want to separate, and he doesn’t want to delay you, but the premise of not delaying you is to let you endure the pain of separation. Good fellow, Yin Gu doesn’t want to let you suffer, but at the same time he has to bear the pain and let you make the right choice.”

 

“This has nothing to do with the principle of ‘spoiling you’.” Zhou Zheyu shook his head. “I dare say that if you ask him to kneel on the washboard for you for a day or a night, he will also agree.”

 

“I am sick in the head if I made him kneel on the washboard.” Yu Chengsong frowned.

 

“This is just a metaphor.” Zhou Zheyu took a puff of cigarette, “The source of this matter is you two’s mental states, and it’s easy to solve.”

 

“How to solve it?” Yu Chengsong looked at him.

 

Zhou Zheyu’s words enlightened him and made him look at Zheyu, a classmate who had never had a serious relationship and was always playing around with a new respect.

 

It seems that the saying that quantitative change leads to qualitative change is still correct.

 

“Everything will work out when the time comes.” Zhou Zheyu gestured calmly, “You love him, he loves you, if you are really apart, time is just a number, it will be a bit hard for sure, but with the two of you being so entangled, there is little chance of problems, it’s all for the future!”

 

“It’s the same as saying nothing.” Yu Chengsong sneered.

 

Although he said this, but the rope in his heart loosened.

 

What impressed him most was not the solution, but Zhou Zheyu’s words, “You both take each other too seriously.”

 

Although it was clearly the source of the problem, it suddenly made him feel better.

 

There is no good reason.

 

It’s just good.

 

The sky was so overcast that it seemed like it was going to fall down, and the cold wind made his hair stand on end, but it couldn’t be stopped either.

 

You like someone very much, no matter how much he likes you, you just like him. Then, when you turn around, you suddenly realize that he likes you just as much.

 

It is probably this feeling, like the ray of sunlight falling on your face when you wake up naturally in the morning, gentle, comfortable, and leisurely.

 

“You know whether what I said is useful or not.” Zhou Zheyu has been friends with him for many years. He can tell from his expression that he has let things go. He immediately smiled and said sarcastically, “Why did Yin Gu’s mother look for him? She wants to take him back again? You two are so weird. You are not even afraid that he might go back with his mother, and yet you are here feeling sad because of what will happen a year later. You are really thinking too far ahead.”

 

“If you can pass the Chinese language test, I’ll kowtow to you.” Yu Chengsong lit another cigarette, “He can’t leave.”

 

“Okay.” Zhou Zheyu said, “It’s not easy for you two to trust each other so much. At our age, we lack the calmness of an old couple like you two.”

 

“Old couple?” Yu Chengsong raised his eyebrows.

 

“That’s not right. After all, I was just sad… Anyway, I feel like you two are in a long-lasting relationship.” Zhou Zheyu used all his life’s knowledge to describe it. “I wish you two could always be so happy. I hope I can get a little bit of happiness from you. One day, God will bless me with a girlfriend.”

 

“You don’t like that person anymore?” Yu Chengsong looked at him.

 

“I like her.” Zhou Zheyu bit his cigarette holder and laughed nonchalantly, “But she doesn’t like me anyway, so I can just like her.”

 

“So pessimistic?” Yu Chengsong bit his cigarette holder and gave him some advice. “It’s true that she loves studying, but it’s also true that her grades are not that good. Instead of complaining about everything, you might as well study hard and work harder to catch up with her.”

 

“I’ve been studying for a whole holiday,” Zhou Zheyu sighed. “College bully, you have to understand that some people are not destined to study.”

 

“I don’t understand. It’s not like you are stupid either.” Yu Chengsong sneered, “You just don’t like her enough; otherwise, you wouldn’t give up so quickly. No wonder she doesn’t like you.”

 

“Bullsh*t!” Zhou Zheyu glared at him. “Brother, even my head is bald, and I still haven’t understood physics and math. I took a make-up test during the holiday and got 16 and 8 points. How can I be happy?”

 

“I’ve told you a thousand times already. If you don’t have the brains, change direction.” Yu Chengsong glanced at him, “Aren’t Chinese, English, and biology good?”

 

“……” Zhou Zheyu was stunned. “Yeah, that’s also true… your phone rang.”

 

Yu Chengsong took out his cell phone, and the caller ID showed—Gu Gu.

 

“Oh my God, Gu Gu.” Zhou Zheyu touched his arm. “I can’t stand it.”

 

“If you can’t bear it anymore, then hold it.” Yu Chengsong answered the call, “Is it over?”

 

“Come home. I ordered takeout.” Yin Gu said with a smile.

 

“Your mother is gone?” Yu Chengsong asked.

 

“En, she just left.” Yin Gu said, “Can you… come back soon? I miss you.”

 

“…right away.” Yu Chengsong hung up the phone and turned away.

 

“Going home?” Zhou Zheyu shouted from behind.

 

“Yeah.” Yu Chengsong’s walking turned into running, he hated himself for not riding a bike out and shouted without turning his head, “You go back!”

 

“Scumbag!” Zhou Zheyu raised his middle finger and shouted, “Pulling out the p*nis without mercy¹Lit. Pulling out the p*nis without mercy, but it means after the matter is over, there is no emotion or friendship anymore.!”

 

Yu Chengsong turned his hand behind his back and gave him the middle finger.

 

Yu Chengsong pushed open the door and bumped into Yin Gu, who was about to go out. The two looked at each other without saying anything. At the same time, they opened their arms and hugged each other tightly.

 

“Chengsong.” Yin Gu called him.

 

“Gu Gu.” Yu Chengsong scratched his back.

 

Both of them looked up at the same time. It was unknown who took the initiative, but when they reacted, they were already kissing each other passionately.

 

As he staggered onto the sofa, Yu Chengsong felt as if all the ties in his heart were gone, and the only thing left was Yin Gu in front of him.

 

The person he likes, his boyfriend, his classmate Gu Gu.

 

“Do you have anything to say?” Yu Chengsong bit his collarbone.

 

Yin Gu groaned, put his hand on his waist, and panted softly: “I’ll tell you later…”

 

A movement of the fingertips created a burning sensation.

 

The warmth of the palms, the drooping eyelids, the gentle breathing, the slightly pursed lips… took away all the unnecessary emotions and forcibly pulled them into another dimensional world.

 

……

 

Yu Chengsong lay on his side on the bed, grabbing the back of Yin Gu’s hand again and again. Yin Gu lay on one side, with his hand on his waist, pressing his palm on the side of his waist and rubbing it gently.

 

“You threatened her?” Yu Chengsong was stunned.

 

“Is that a threat?” Yin Gu laughed innocently. “I just said I don’t know what I would do, and she believed me. She promised me that she would not care about us anymore as long as I didn’t go home and embarrass them.”

 

“I feel that.” Yu Chengsong looked at him, “Happiness comes so suddenly.”

 

“It’s indeed a bit sudden,” Yin Gu said softly and looked at him after a while. “Would parents from an ordinary family choose to believe that their son is a bad guy who can do anything without hesitation?”

 

“…I don’t know. My family isn’t ordinary either.” Yu Chengsong thought for a moment and picked an almost ordinary example. “If Zheyu said that, Auntie would probably beat his head with a broom until it was deformed, thinking that he had been possessed by evil spirits because he watched too much TV.”

 

“Is Auntie so violent?” Yin Gu laughed for a long time. “She was very enthusiastic when I went there.”

 

“If she wasn’t so violent, Zheyu and I could tear down the school.” Yu Chengsong laughed. After a while, he held his hand, squeezed it, and said in a deep voice, “I don’t believe it.”

 

“Hmm?” Yin Gu tilted his head.

 

“I say, I don’t believe you are a bad person who can do anything.” Yu Chengsong kissed the corner of his lips, rubbed his hair, and comforted him. “You are already an adult, you must learn to listen to what you should listen to and block out what you shouldn’t listen to.”

 

“I understand.” Yin Gu tilted his head and put his ear towards him, saying seriously, “Then I can only hear you talking.”

 

“Be an O for love then.” Yu Chengsong said in his ear.

 

“What?” Yin Gu frowned slightly, looking confused. “Why can’t I hear anymore?”

 

“Go away.” Yu Chengsong pushed his head away, looked into his eyes, and suddenly said, “I figured it out.”

 

“Hmm?” Yin Gu looked at him.

 

“I’m sorry, Gu Gu.” Yu Chengsong said.

 

“What?” Yin Gu was stunned.

 

“I got angry with you twice today.” Yu Chengsong tapped his palm with his fingers and reflected on himself, “If I say that I got angry because I liked you too much, I am shirking my responsibility. I was wrong for not considering your feelings. I should apologize.”

 

“Does that count as being angry?” Yin Gu supported his chin with one hand and looked at him sideways, his lips curved with infinite tolerance. “You don’t need to apologize for such a small matter, you never have to.”

 

“Zheyu said that our problem is that we take each other too seriously.” Yu Chengsong smiled at him, “I think this problem is quite good. I was very depressed, but when he said that, I suddenly felt that it was nothing.”

 

“It’s just four years. We’ll still be together for many more years. Besides, it’s not like we won’t see each other for four years, right?”

 

“Yes.” Yin Gu held his hand, put it to his lips, and kissed it. “We can meet.”

 

“Gu Gu.” Yu Chengsong looked into his eyes. “Are you reluctant to leave me?”

 

“……” Yin Gu’s fingertips paused slightly, and the emotions in his eyes seemed to be out of control for a second. After a while, he nodded, “En.”

 

With a simple “en”, Yu Chengsong felt a pain in his heart. He touched his ear, curved his lips, and said in a hoarse voice, “I’m very happy that you can tell me the truth.”

 

Perhaps the day when he stops saying one thing and thinking another and Yin Gu stops pretending that nothing is wrong will be the day when they truly mature.

 

But he doesn’t hate the present situation. Every stage with Yin Gu is worth celebrating and commemorating—for you, I want to become better, and for us, I am willing to become better with you.

 

Every little bit is proof of our love, and we cannot bear to miss any moment.

 

“Chengsong.” Yin Gu buried his head in his neck and said in a muffled voice, “I miss you so much and can’t bear to leave you… but we can’t give up what we deserve because of this. I will always be here, and you will too. We’ve never been apart.”

 

“Yes.” Yu Chengsong hugged him tightly, his eyes burning with tears. “Even if we are in two different places, it’s also the place we’ve been together.”

 

Yin Gu kissed him on the collarbone and whispered, “Because our destination is the same.”

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  Lit. Pulling out the p*nis without mercy, but it means after the matter is over, there is no emotion or friendship anymore.