SEBLS Chapter 36

No matter what Zhuang Wu said afterward, Qin Qiyue still went to the bathroom to take a cold shower.

After a long time, Zhuang Wu finally coaxed Qin Qiyue to sleep.

Apart from being angry, Zhuang Wu was mostly happy. The drunk Qin Qiyue was really nice without the usual indifferent attitude and was quite cute.

While sleeping, perhaps because of the cold or what, Qin Qiyue slept with Zhuang Wu in his arms. He held him very tightly.

Early the next morning, Zhuang Wu felt someone move beside him. It took him a long time to open his eyes and take a look. It was Qin Qiyue who got up.

Zhuang Wu opened his phone and checked the time. It was 6:13. He couldn’t help but say, “Gege, why are you up so early?”

Qin Qiyue’s body froze when he heard Zhuang Wu’s voice. He didn’t turn around. “I can’t sleep.”

What does this deliberately cold attitude mean? Zhuang Wu was confused.

“Gege, how can you wake up so early after drinking?” Zhuang Wu curled his lips. “Do you remember what you did to me yesterday?” 

After a moment of silence, Qin Qiyue still did not turn around. “I don’t remember.”

The tone revealed a guilty conscience, and Zhuang Wu found it a bit amusing.

Seeing that Qin Qiyue refused to turn around, Zhuang Wu simply got out of bed and walked around to stand in front of Qin Qiyue. He grabbed Qin Qiyue’s hand which was about to zip up his jacket.

“You don’t?” Zhuang Wu asked. “Gege, are you lying to me?” 

Qin Qiyue pursed his lips and repeated, “I really don’t remember. I drank too much and I can’t remember anything after I got drunk.”

Alright, in that case, Zhuang Wu simply won’t test him any further.

“It’s fine if you don’t remember.” Zhuang Wu seemed to compromise. When Qin Qiyue breathed a sigh of relief, he spoke again, “Then let me tell you what you did to me.” 

“……”

Qin Qiyue was finally willing to look up at Zhuang Wu, and the two of them just stared at each other.

“…What did I do?” Qin Qiyue was helpless.

Zhuang Wu continued, “Yesterday, after you got drunk, you pinned me down and held me tightly, refusing to let me get up.”

He knew Zhuang Wu would say this. Qin Qiyue was still figuring out how to explain it to Zhuang Wu.

The next second, Zhuang Wu’s words made him doubt his memory for a moment. “You even took off my clothes.”

“…??”

He, took off Zhuang Wu’s clothes?

Is this true, or did he really drink too much to remember?

“You even kissed me.” Zhuang Wu smiled with evil humor. “My lips are swollen from your kisses.” 

“……”

Qin Qiyue knew that Zhuang Wu was lying to him.

He clearly kissed Zhuang Wu’s hand, not his lips. Besides, wasn’t it Zhuang Wu who was the first to kiss his hand?

He ran it back, and it seemed like there was nothing wrong with that, wasn’t there?

“Just treat it as me being drunk and not thinking straight.” Qin Qiyue broke free from Zhuang Wu’s grip.

How could he possibly be willing?

Seeing that Qin Qiyue was about to get up, Zhuang Wu supported himself on the edge of the bed with both hands, blocking the way for Qin Qiyue to get up.

“I don’t want to. You took my first kiss away. How can I let you go?” Zhuang Wu brought their faces closer and said shamelessly, “You confessed to me yesterday. You said you liked me, so you have to be responsible for me.” 

“……”

Then, Zhuang Wu said aggrievedly, “Gege, you confessed to me and kissed me. Are you going to turn against me now?”

Can’t bear it, don’t need to bear it anymore.

Qin Qiyue admitted, “Zhuang Wu, I still remember what happened last night. Don’t make up things that don’t exist.”

It turns out that he remembered. Did he trick Qin Qiyue into admitting it because he lied to him about confessing to me?

He really didn’t want to hear that…

Qin Qiyue pushed Zhuang Wu’s arm away and tried to get up, but Zhuang Wu lost his balance and fell towards Qin Qiyue. Fortunately, Qin Qiyue quickly managed to catch Zhuang Wu.

Currently, the scene looked as if Zhuang Wu was sitting on Qin Qiyue’s lap with Qin Qiyue holding him in his arms, but the actual situation was that Zhuang Wu had accidentally fallen on Qin Qiyue.

Since it was already like this, Zhuang Wu stopped pretending. “You said you still remember, so let me ask you, what were you trying to say yesterday when you didn’t finish your sentence, and why didn’t you say it?”

Qin Qiyue stared at him without saying anything. He knew that Zhuang Wu was referring to what he said last night, “I towards you”.

“Can you stop always making me talk alone and not respond?” Zhuang Wu muttered softly, “What you were trying to say is that you have feelings for me, too, right?” 

This time Qin Qiyue rejected him almost immediately, “No.”

“So what did you want to say? I towards you, what?” Zhuang Wu became anxious.

There was another silence.

“Gege.” Zhuang Wu barely managed to pull the corner of his mouth up. “Is it that hard to admit that you like me?” 

“No.” Qin Qiyue lowered his eyes. “But I really don’t like you, so I can’t admit it.” 

Qin Qiyue’s words were like an arrow that pierced his heart. Zhuang Wu clearly felt the pain in his heart.

This time it was Zhuang Wu’s turn to remain silent.

“Sorry.” Qin Qiyue clenched his fists.

“I don’t want you to apologize! You don’t like me and you’re not wrong, why are you apologizing?” Zhuang Wu suddenly became excited. “I just want to know what you like, so I can try to change…”  

Qin Qiyue stood up and did not respond to Zhuang Wu’s words. Instead, he walked straight past Zhuang Wu to the bathroom to wash up, then left the room, leaving Zhuang Wu alone in the room to grapple with his thoughts.

Why was Qin Qiyue so hard to pursue when young?

Zhuang Wu squatted down, tears unconsciously streaming down his face.

Zhuang Wu and Qin Qiyue have known each other since childhood. In their previous life, their parents hoped that they could take care of each other like brothers. Little did they know, their shared dream of becoming actors would eventually turn them into bitter rivals who couldn’t stand each other.

Later, Qin Qiyue became a top-tier popular actor, and Zhuang Wu became an 18th-tier actor so obscure that no one could recognize him in a crowd. Zhuang Wu was jealous and opened a small account on Weibo, becoming Qin Qiyue’s number one black fan.

He thought they would never get along with each other for the rest of their lives, but by chance they got to act in the same drama.

On set, Zhuang Wu constantly targeted Qin Qiyue, only to be harshly criticized by Qin Qiyue’s fans online. So, Zhuang Wu changed his approach to disgust Qin Qiyue. He served tea and water to Qin Qiyue on set and asked about his well-being. At first, Qin Qiyue just responded with a look that seemed to say: Are you out of your mind?

Later on, Qin Qiyue became increasingly concerned about Zhuang Wu and began to stir up trouble between them. Zhuang Wu was often overwhelmed by Qin Qiyue’s words, and that’s when CP fans appeared on the Internet.

The relationship between the two gradually heated up and they gradually fell in love with each other. Finally, one of them mustered up the courage to confess to the other, but Qin Qiyue’s sasaeng fan suddenly broke in and stabbed Zhuang Wu.

When he woke up again, Zhuang Wu was back in his senior year of high school.

If he had traveled back in time at the beginning, Zhuang Wu could tell himself with certainty that Qin Qiyue had already fallen in love with him in the previous life, and if he followed the same method in this life, Qin Qiyue would sooner or later fall in love with him as well.

But now, Zhuang Wu was not so sure. Will Qin Qiyue really like him?

Now, he had spent far more time pursuing Qin Qiyue than he had in his previous life, yet Qin Qiyue had never once hinted at any feelings for him.

What should he do if he couldn’t make Qin Qiyue fall in love with him again?

He finally became an actor with great difficulty, but now, he has lost that identity. At least Qin Qiyue was by his side, but no matter what method he used, Qin Qiyue remained indifferent.

This time, Zhuang Wu took an unusually long time to relax.

It didn’t matter, there was still a lot of time, he had plenty of time to pester Qin Qiyue. Zhuang Wu comforted himself helplessly.

But this time, his words offered no comfort; he no longer had the same certainty he had before.

After his tears dried, Zhuang Wu stood up and left the room.

Qin Qiyue, who had been feeling a little uneasy in his chair, worried about why Zhuang Wu had not come downstairs for such a long time, looked obviously relieved when he saw Zhuang Wu coming down, but quickly returned to his indifferent look.

“Gege.” Zhuang Wu ran to Qin Qiyue and grabbed Qin Qiyue’s hand. “Are you going somewhere?” 

“Breakfast.” Qin Qiyue said lightly.

Zhuang Wu smiled. “I want to go with Gege.”

“…Mn.” Qin Qiyue didn’t refuse.

Because it was winter, the air outside was particularly cold. As soon as they left the hotel, they were instantly struck by the chill.

Zhuang Wu subconsciously looked at Qin Qiyue, and saw that there was nothing around his neck.

“Gege.” Zhuang Wu frowned. “Why didn’t you wear the scarf I knitted for you? Didn’t you say you liked it?” 

Qin Qiyue was stunned and didn’t know how to answer.

“Where’s the scarf?” Zhuang Wu asked. “Gege, did you just throw it away after I gave it to you?” 

“No.” Qin Qiyue explained, “I took it. It’s in the suitcase in the room.” 

At first, he really wanted to put the scarf away. After all, it was embarrassing to wear the scarf knitted for him by Zhuang Wu in front of Zhuang Wu.

However, before he left, he couldn’t help but pack the scarf into the suitcase.

Zhuang Wu was a little bit unconvinced, “Then why aren’t you wearing it?”

Qin Qiyue was a little evasive under Zhuang Wu’s direct gaze. “It’s not cold.”

“Lies.” Zhuang Wu exposed him. “Your face is frozen red, how can you not be cold? Since you said you brought it with you, then wear it and show it to me. Let’s go back to the hotel.” 

“……”

Does he not trust himself? Qin Qiyue felt inexplicably unhappy.

Finally, under Zhuang Wu’s insistence, Qin Qiyue and Zhuang Wu returned to the room. He took out the scarf that Zhuang Wu had knitted for him from his suitcase and hesitated for a moment whether to wear it or not.

Seeing Qin Qiyue hesitating for a long time, Zhuang Wu snatched the scarf, quickly hung it around Qin Qiyue’s neck, and tied the scarf for him.

Qin Qiyue lowered his eyes and looked at Zhuang Wu who was tying a scarf for him. Zhuang Wu also looked cold, his face red.

Before he could react, Qin Qiyue’s hand had already touched Zhuang Wu’s face.

Zhuang Wu’s face felt so cold.

Zhuang Wu was stunned for a moment when Qin Qiyue touched his cheek. What was Qin Qiyue doing?

Perhaps realizing what he was doing, Qin Qiyue withdrew his hand and stopped moving, pretending to be calm. “Your face was a little dirty.”

“……”

He washed his face and looked in the mirror. Where is he dirty? Did the cold air make him dirty?