YNRHPCYC Chapter 83

In his memory, the last time Zhong Wenjin cried seemed to be several years ago.

When he was a child, Zhong Wenjin loved to cry. He looked like a pink jade sculpture, and he looked very loveable when he cried. Every time Xie Zhaoxue saw him crying, he wanted to hug him and kiss him.

But as he grew older, Zhong Wenjin became like a hedgehog. Especially whenever he saw him, that hostility was unmistakable.

At this moment, Zhong Wenjin looked very fragile, tears hanging on his eyelashes, trembling slightly, but the strength in his hands was extremely firm.

 

Tears slid down from the corners of his eyes. Zhong Wenjin was afraid that Xie Zhaoxue would throw him away and beat him up.

He had thought it through. It was worth it even if he got beaten.

However, Xie Zhaoxue didn’t move at all, and Zhong Wenjin felt even more bitter and sad in his heart. He could almost picture Xie Zhaoxue’s cold gaze falling on him, like a spike piercing his heart, which hurt a lot.

Zhong Wenjin wanted to bite Xie Zhaoxue’s lips with his sharp teeth to make them bleed, at least to give him pain, so that he would remember it. But he couldn’t bring himself to do it, so he just used his teeth to grind his lips.

Just as Zhong Wenjin was trying to make this moment be remembered, his soft, moist lips suddenly moved, and he suddenly wrapped his lips around his.

Before Zhong Wenjin could react, Xie Zhaoxue’s hand climbed up along Zhong Wenjin’s spine to the back of his head. He didn’t know where he was pressed, but he felt a numbness in the back of his neck, his eyes fell into darkness, and he completely lost consciousness.

Before fainting, Zhong Wenjin cursed Xie Zhaoxue and then thought: Did he respond?

Zhong Wenjin didn’t know how long he had been unconscious, and it was already dusk when he woke up.

He was lying on the bed, covered with a quilt, and he didn’t have to think about it to know that it was Xie Zhaoxue’s work.

Zhong Wenjin sat up from the bed and saw dark surroundings. His boots were placed beside the bed. He thought of his previous impulsiveness and felt both embarrassed and sad. He was depressed for a while, and suddenly his mood turned into anger.

What are you afraid of? This situation should have been expected a long time ago. So what if Xie Zhaoxue didn’t want to see him anymore? He was leaving anyway.

Thinking of this, Zhong Wenjin got out of bed in one go, turned on the light, and started to pack his things. There weren’t many in total. And after packing, he went to Xie Zhaoxue’s room.

He at least had to say goodbye, Zhong Wenjin thought.

Xie Zhaoxue’s residence was very close to Zhong Wenjin’s, and there was a cobblestone road in between. When Zhong Wenjin walked up the road, he glanced at the flowers planted on both sides of the road. Although a lot of them had withered, there were still a few that were still tender and beautiful.

When he was almost there, he saw Ding Ziyun coming out of Xie Zhaoxue’s room. When she saw Zhong Wenjin, for a brief moment, panic flickered in her eyes before she quickly hid it and turned away indifferently.

When he saw her like this, Zhong Wenjin was so angry that his nose went awry. If this happened in the Zhong Mansion in the past, he would have insisted on teaching this maid who didn’t know etiquette a lesson.

On second thought, this was Xie Zhaoxue’s maid, and he didn’t seem to have the qualifications to go □□ her.

He straightened the wrinkles on his clothes, coughed twice to give himself courage, and walked straight to Xie Zhaoxue’s room. After walking in, he found that there was no one in the room. He looked around for a while and finally sat down on a chair, determined to wait for him to come back.

Zhong Wenjin sat in Xie Zhaoxue’s room for a long time, but he never came back.

He guessed that he might have gone to cultivate feelings with Qiao Yanci again. After all, the two of them were finally going to get married, and there was nothing wrong with doing so.

A wave of irritation suddenly washed over Zhong Wenjin, followed by a sense of weakness, which made him very tired.

He glanced at the tea on the table, took a sip of it and suppressed his restlessness with the cold liquid.

The mountains remain evergreen and the waters overflowing[footnote]It is actually a stock phrase common for goodbyes with the implied meaning that the feelings between us will also remain unchanging. The mountains and waters part comes from the aptly named poem 《离别》, “Farewell”. You can also find this in the ending scene of untamed.[/footnote]. If we are destined, we can still meet again.

He thought secretly.

Before leaving, he kicked over the chair to vent his anger.

After returning to his residence, Zhong Wenjin took out all the things he had packed: a stack of □□, some simple clothes, the silver he usually accumulated, and some small items.

Zhong Wenjin could not take much away. All his food, clothing, and daily expenses here were from the Xie family. He did not bring anything when he came, but he had to take some away when he left.

But it didn’t matter; the Xie family didn’t lack these clothes anyway.

After packing up all the things, Zhong Wenjin sat in a chair in a daze. After sitting for a while, he felt a little stuffy. He took off his outer robe and coat and got up to poke the heater.

But this heat did not ease but became more and more intense, gradually gushing out from the heart, spreading to the limbs, and going to the lower abdomen in large amounts.

Zhong Wenjin felt that something was wrong and took off another layer of clothing. But the heat still did not subside at all. He even felt that his breathing was a little rough.

This feeling was both familiar and strange. Zhong Wenjin stood up and took two steps. Suddenly, he felt a strong desire burst out. It came quickly and violently, urging him to find someone to vent to.

Oh no! I fell into it!

Zhong Wenjin felt a chill in his heart and hurried to pour herbal tea. As soon as he drank a cup, the door was suddenly opened. He turned his head in panic but saw Xie Zhaoxue standing in front of the door.

He looked normal. Though he wasn’t smiling as he typically did, there was no trace of anger or disgust. The moment Zhong Wenjin saw him, the desire to move on his body seemed to have found a goal, and his impatience surged.

Just then, he didn’t arrive even though he waited for him for a long time. But now he appeared again at this kind of time. He was really a nuisance!

Zhong Wenjin hurriedly turned his head, gritted his teeth to suppress it, and poured another cup of herbal tea.

Just as he was about to pour it into his mouth, he was suddenly stopped by a hand. With a glance, he saw that it was Xie Zhaoxue who had been walking over.

“Don’t drink so much cold water on such a cold day.” Xie Zhaoxue took out the water cup and put it on the table without giving in. He also put a food box on it, opened the lid, and turned around to close the door.

“Don’t knock it over again this time. Eat it well.”

Zhong Wenjin only took a glance at it and saw that it was from the same restaurant as the one he had knocked over before. They were all his favourite foods to eat, usually. They were neatly arranged and exquisite in appearance.

But now he had no intention of tasting the pastries. He turned his head and said, trying to keep his voice as calm as possible and enduring the bulging veins on his forehead, “You go out first.”

Seeing that he didn’t want to look at him, Xie Zhaoxue was not angry and said in a faint tone, “Even if you are angry with me, you can’t not eat. Do you want to starve to death in Xie Mansion to make me feel guilty?”

“This has nothing to do with you.” Zhong Wenjin was struggling to cope and found that his tone was a little bad, so he added, “I’m not hungry.”

 

“Zhong Wenjin.” Xie Zhaoxue reached out and touched his shoulder, but before he could speak, it was suddenly thrown away by him.

He walked forward a few steps, “I’m fine, I’m fine; we can talk tomorrow if we have anything to say. I’m tired and want to rest.”

Xie Zhaoxue made out a hint, frowned slightly, and glanced to the side. Suddenly, he saw packed luggage, and his face changed extremely subtly.

He walked over quickly, untied the package, and the things inside were exposed. Xie Zhaoxue grabbed Zhong Wenjin’s arm and asked, “What is this?”

It was very hard for Zhong Wenjin to bear it. Seeing that he had found it, he thought it would be better to say something harsh to make him angry, so he said coldly, “Can’t you see? I said I want to leave Xie Mansion.”

“The Zhong family was raided. Where do you want to go now after you leave Xie Mansion?” Xie Zhaoxue raised his eyebrows and persuaded him, as if there was no other reason, “Don’t mess around.”

“I’m not messing around!” Zhong Wenjin struggled, “Xi Liang is so big; there is always a place for me to stay. There is no Zhong family in the capital, and there is no Zhong Wenjin. From here on, I will be free.”

Xie Zhaoxue felt it to be a little ear-piercing when he heard this, “You don’t know anything. Wouldn’t it be like courting your death if you go out?”

“Little uncle, you underestimate me too much. I’m not a useless person. In any case, I still have all my limbs. What can’t I do?” Zhong Wenjin sneered, “Worst case, I’ll just marry into a wealthy family and tear off this pathetic mask I’m living behind!”

“You would rather marry into a family than stay in the Xie’s house?” Xie Zhaoxue felt it a little unfathomable.

“Anyway, I am also a burden in Xie Mansion. It’s the same everywhere! Why bother to stay here and get bored with looking at each other?” Zhong Wenjin endured it to his limit, shook off Xie Zhaoxue’s hand, and strode out the door.

I can’t bear it anymore! If you don’t leave, I will!

However, Xie Zhaoxue didn’t want to stop there. He caught up with him in two steps, grabbed his wrist, and pulled him against the wall.

Xie Zhaoxue had a lot of strength; Zhong Wenjin knew it. Before he had a chance to react, his back hit the wall, and he found himself firmly restrained by Xie Zhaoxue’s grip.

He knew that Zhong Wenjin was angry and that it would not work to argue with him. So he softened his voice and said, “Xie Mansion is your home. So how can you be considered a burden?”

“This is not my home! You are all surnamed Xie; only I am surnamed Zhong. I am an outsider!” Zhong Wenjin was a little overwhelmed, and fine sweat appeared on his forehead and the tip of his nose, “After a while, you will marry Qiao Yanci and will have a child. After you have a family, how can I stay here? Anyway, sooner or later, I will be kicked out. So it’s better for me to go by myself.”

Zhong Wenjin spoke, his voice tinged with a mix of grievance and anger, “You know it anyway, and I’m not afraid of you telling others. But Laozi likes men. Even if Laozi is useless, I still have some skins. After I go out, I can just find a rich kid to hook up with. It’s better than living in hiding here!”

Xie Zhaoxue became so angry, and his usually warm eyes were stained with fire. He pinched Zhong Wenjin’s chin and raised it, “What did you say?”

Zhong Wenjin’s breathing was unusually rapid, and it was not at all like he was angry. It was even more obvious when he raised his head. His fair face and neck were stained with crimson. He flung back his head and tried to break free from Xie Zhaoxue’s hand, “Let me go!”

Xie Zhaoxue finally noticed his abnormality at this time. His hand slid down and pressed against his neck, and the scorching temperature came through.

Zhong Wenjin had already endured it to the limit. This slight touch made his scalp numb, and a comfortable feeling surged all over his body. While he was still rational, he stretched out his hand to push Xie Zhaoxue, “Go away! Don’t touch me!”

Xie Zhaoxue’s eyes darkened and his voice sank, “Are you drugged?”

However, Zhong Wenjin was still in a trance. He just kept pushing him, muttering, “Let me go out, let me go out……”

Xie Zhaoxue stared at his face for a moment, and it was unknown what he was thinking.

“I want to leave here.” Zhong Wenjin let out a weak breath. He felt uncomfortable all over when he was touched by him just now.

However, Xie Zhaoxue’s shackles were still strong. He looked at his red ears and his lowered head. His dark eyes became extremely abstruse, and he said slowly, “Zhong Wenjin, don’t you want to not hide it anymore? I’ll help you.”

As soon as he finished speaking, he suddenly picked Zhong Wenjin up, walked to the bed and threw him on it.

Zhong Wenjin was startled and involuntarily cried out, “Xie Zhaoxue, what do you want to do!”

Before he could get up, Xie Zhaoxue suddenly pressed him down, clasped Zhong Wenjin’s wrists with both hands and pinned them above his head. His handsome face was very close, and all his breath was sprayed on Zhong Wenjin’s face. He said in a low voice, “Be good; don’t move.”

Was Zhong Wenjin the kind of person who listened to others? Moreover, he felt that Xie Zhaoxue was so angry with him, and for fear that he would do something unthinkable with him, he struggled hard, “Are you crazy?! Wake up!”

However, he hadn’t eaten for a day, and he didn’t have much strength at this time. What’s more, Xie Zhaoxue’s strength could crush him, and Zhong Wenjin could not shake him even a little bit even if he risked his life.

Both his hands were pressed tightly, and he could not move.

Xie Zhaoxue curled the corners of his mouth and showed a smile, which was no different from his usual gentle and elegant appearance, but there was a sense of seduction for no reason.

Zhong Wenjin felt one of his hands get loose, and he immediately swung his fist to hit him. But Xie Zhaoxue leaned his head back and dodged it easily.

He wanted to throw a second punch, but Xie Zhaoxue did not give him this opportunity. He pulled his hairband, twisted his hands together, and tied them up layer by layer with the hairband, completely imprisoning him.

Zhong Wenjin was really panicking now. He looked at Xie Zhaoxue with some fear, his breathing rapid, and he stammered, “Xie Zhaoxue, what do you want to do?”

He leaned over and pressed his lips against Zhong Wenjin’s ear, whispering, “You brought this upon yourself. I have endured it for so many years, but now I don’t want to endure it anymore.”

After he finished speaking, he leaned over and pressed his lips against his.

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